Isaac

Passion

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 04:01:33 GMT

Sometimes I just wish I were passionate about SOMETHING.

I mean, I'm a nurse, & I enjoy that, I'm a student & hate school (que shock!) I have hobbies that I really enjoy (collectible games, anime, comics, etc.) I like to read, I like to dance, & I like to listen to music, but I always hear about people finding things that they just can't live/breathe/exist without, whether it be a significant other, an occupation, or something else, and those always make me feel so... Lacking at times.

Otherwise, I mean, I'm completely content. I have a family that loves me, a job, friends, no girlfriend yet, hobbies, and a strong faith. It's just weird to hear about people having something that you've never had, & then them asking what your equivalent is. Shoot, the two young adults group leaders at church even had two different takes on it, one of them just came up with this "We should be looking towards heavenly things, & not fall in love with things of this world," *coughCopoutAnswercough* & the other (the one I'm more inclined to believe) cited a scripture that basically said Seek God first, and he'll give me the desires of my heart, to which he cautioned me that with seeking God, the desires of my heart might change. I don't care if they change, just as long as I find something that I enjoy more than playing devil's advocate in arguments. & Maybe that second leader is right, maybe I should just stop worrying about it & have a little "faith," no? ^_^ Knowing full well my habit of doing things on my own, maybe it is finally time to just say to God that I'm trusting him with my future, instead of me trying to plow through it alone all the time... Maybe? I dunno

Or maybe I should learn to play the banjo.

This is your local moral dilemma- signing off.

RANT: Girls....

Mon, 27 Oct 2003 13:58:12 GMT

Gah... yeah, look at me... posting a rant about girls. And here I thought it would never happen, but finally, I've broke... I can't take it anymore...

YOU'RE A SMART GIRL.... YOU'RE NOT STUPID! WHY ARE YOU BEING STUPID!!?!????!?!!?!?!

I did it to myself, you understand... she was my friend, the youngest in my nursing-school class, cute little redhead that I kept in contact with after graduation & went out with, y'know, as friends, to lunches & such (also so that she could mooch anime)... & I figure, why not bring up the possibility of developing this relationship further? & here you might think "uh, oh. Stupid Isaac." Honestly though, I'm glad I did. It popped my bubble about how mature & intelligent this girl is... She was the Valedictorian of my class, but it's become clear that when it comes to the practical world... I dunno, I just don't like getting hurt like that... she is soooooooo... gah, blind... she wont let anything else in, and focuses everything on this 29 year-old unrequetted love (she's 18) sooooo much that she can't see what's right in front of her... even if it's not me... she won't even let anyone in to try to compete with that focus, and that's all I wanted to do! just be an acknowledged competitor, but noooooo... & from what I hear now, after the fact, I'm not the only one that she's done this to... but I AM the only one who is willing to keep being friends with her after the fact (no matter how much I keep thinking that the hurt that entails isn't worth it...)

Gah!... Y'know, as far as I'm concerned, she utterly collapses
that tripe that girls always used to spout in grade school about "girls mature faster than boys." It's just not true...

I've grown up around girls, heck, I didn't have my first non-familial guy friend untill I was 12 (this is what happens when you put your little boy into ballet classes...) & while, I think it's good for the guy (I've never had trouble seeing things from the girl's point of view) I just always seem to be on the wrong foot with girls... like they anticipate the normal, average guy, & then get suprised when I know what they are trying to do... EXCEPT with this one! How can someone so smart be so...... gah, DUMB!!!!!

yeah... end illogical & grammarically-challenged rant... thank you for your time

Isaac

Friday night update

Sat, 11 Oct 2003 01:18:22 GMT

well... if I can keep finding it for around $11 a volume, I think I will keep looking into Battle Athletes Victory... thanks bizal ^_^

watching Rah & thinking about trying to stay awake at work tonight... the Hall that I'm working is REALLY low on census (twenty-something residents on a hall that usually houses fourty-plus) but I got a good book, so tonight should be workable...

I also got the new schedule for the next 4 weeks, & guess what? I work on the night of the Five Iron Frenzy farewell concert (GAH!) just so that you know, Five Iron Frenzy is one of the few remaining, soon to be defunct though, EXTREMELY good Ska bands, & probabaly my favorite band of all time (because I've pretty muchly grown up with them...) sooooooo I will be looking for someone to either trade shifts with me, or work a few extra hours to cover me untill I can get there (the concert starts at 7, so it should be done by midnight or so... only an hour or two seeing as how my shift starts at 11pm)

I also have to decide if I should buy my friend Aimee Blue Seed (the series)-which she already has seen & likes, or Nadesico -which she hasn't seen yet, but should be next on her queue to borrow from me, for her birthday... yes... she's one of the anime-moochers that I have (heck man, I have a library, it's nice to share ^_^) so... I can get Nadesico for $50 for her though, & that would be nice, or BS for $35... meh... I have a week to decide...

To reviews though... so hard to do reviews on back titles when I still have so much to watch as far as new stuff (Rah, Noir, Card Captor Sakura) AND the local hastings just got the All Purpose Cultural Catgirl Niku-Niku OAV collection! (yeah, I sense an anime night coming up here soon... maybe next weekend...)for now though... another night at work... maybe I'll invest in a dvd-rom laptop ^_^ that way I could watch anime at work...

heh, yeah, if playing the GBA would be frowned upon at work, I have NO idea what watching a movie would do to those old sour nurses... heheh, almost worth it just to find out ^_^

& tomorrow's the Faction War for Mechwarrior! r0k! so much good stuff ^_^

10:15, an all is well!

Fri, 10 Oct 2003 04:18:40 GMT

blargh... quick post before I go to work...

got Battle Athlets Victory vol 1 today ($6, so I figured why not) & watched the first 2 episodes... I dunno though... maybe I'll post something & find out if the ending's good, but otherwise I'll probabaly trade it after I'm done with it (it's cute & all, but it's also 8 volumes, & I don't really want to get into it unless it's pretty good)...

anywho... off to take care of my elders ^_^

Grudge Match

Tue, 07 Oct 2003 18:53:54 GMT

aaahh yet another beautiful tuesday.... & you know what that means?

Mechwarrior Clix tournament, (Collectible miniatures... put together an army & fight another player... anywho) today though, I play against the ONLY guy in my city that I have never beater >_< yeah... I want this game BAD... grrrr

I also have to fix that stillborn Blue Seed: Beyond review, hmm... & I need to call Aimee, which is a whole 'nother battle... man, I wish I wasn't so scared of losing her as a friend (yeah, how many movies has that been a plotline of? I lost cout...) it's not even as funny or simple as the movies though whtn it happens to you... GAH!..

1st Entry!

Mon, 06 Oct 2003 08:49:40 GMT

heh! Well, I'm new here, & it looks to be interesting ^_^

I'm up at.... 2:45 am to finish homework that's due later today. Blegh... stupid college, I never had this much homework in highschool (even with nursing school!) but anyways... it all makes for almost no time to do reviews between homework and watching new anime... anywho... back to homework!